Love Like Jesus

I love you. This phrase is so overused that it almost can't even be taken seriously. When most people say it they only want to manipulate for their own good. Men will use these words to get physical satisfaction while women might use it to get a guy to stay when neither of them want the relationship.

This phrase when used by me means so much more. When I say, "I love you" I don't just miss you when you aren't around. I would die for you. When these words escape my thoughts they are true and real and do not fade with the snap of your fingers. Breaking my devotion for a person is a very difficult process and only comes with a deep sense of betrayal or a gradual decline in interaction due to the others in my life. This does not come easily for me and typically this sort of break takes over two years.

There has only been one time where the change of mind has come quickly. This occurred when a "friend" betrayed someone very close to me, my boyfriend, and myself. Not only had this person stolen a friend from me but they had treated them so roughly that I could do nothing but defend them. I do not take well to betrayal not for my own sake but in the lives of those I care for. I had been maltreated by this person for years but I have never minded until she got those important to me involved.

When I say I love you it is the love Jesus had for me. I was always taught to reflect His love in everything I did. Loving my enemies is a place to start. I do this and more however if these people refuse to see the wrong that they have done and justify themselves as if they are more important than anything else I must reject them. These people are toxic to be around. I love you to me means I would die for you and I cannot imagine my life without you in it. This applies to family, friends, and other half. When they do things that put themselves in danger I feel the worry that they may not be around so deeply. Little things to my friends that they say or do can become incredibly hurtful because of this. Jesus loved me first and everyone else. If He loves them how arrogant would I be not to do the same even if it hurts.

Online Cat Calling

You know it is a shame that a person who has never posted one obscene picture can be labeled a whore by random men. I use social media like instagram all the time and recently have been trying to get more followers to attract views to my artwork. Not my boobs. Assuming they WERE bigger I do not wear clothing that displays my body in a revealing way. This is not just because I am religious but because I have more respect for myself and the ones who raised me. Despite these facts I like many other women am constantly bombarded with starting remarks such as "you are so beautiful" only to quickly turn into a conversation about how I must have a small vagina, or just about how horny he is after telling him multiple times about how happy I was in my current relationship. This upsets me mostly because my instagram and other social media is mostly made up of my opinions and art that I have made. Rather than commenting on the things I have done (more recently might I add) these guys can only talk about what their penis is telling them to talk about. This makes them pretty easy to spot but then again it is still a compliment and as I do not intend to be impolite I say thank you anyhow.

Not even talking about my boyfriend would throw these guys off. I gave an impossible penis size just because it was rude of him to ask and if that weren't enough there are pictures of my boyfriend featured on my page. These guys never get the hint though after all of this at least half of them have the guts to ask for my friends numbers. Not if they would be interested in a hookup or dating or anything just a demand for their information. As if demeaning me to get themselves off isn't enough they have the gall to bring people I care about into that equation. I do not post workout selfies with just the workout bra on or swimsuit pictures. I am always fully clothed. Is it that women are not allowed to look nice in pictures without being materialized. The majority of the men who do this specifically to me live in other countries so far away I would never meet them. How dare they ask me such personal questions. My virginity, cup size, cell number, penis preference really is none of their business.

The thing is I am not rude. I understand that these lonely sons of slugs will probably never be truly happy in their relationships because they do things like this. That being said when this happens to me I give them the same advice I would give a friend. I tell it like it is. I HAVE a boyfriend and our relationship is in great condition. It is 4 AM my friends are ASLEEP and even if they weren't they are also in happy RELATIONSHIPS (if not with their boys or with God then with me keeping them safe from these creepers). If you are SO DESPERATE to get your rocks off then go to a completely consensual website where pornstars get paid to do that for you when you decide to dehumanize women at 4 AM Texas time. Thank you for liking my pictures and following feel free to subscribe to my youtube channel.