Love Like Jesus

I love you. This phrase is so overused that it almost can't even be taken seriously. When most people say it they only want to manipulate for their own good. Men will use these words to get physical satisfaction while women might use it to get a guy to stay when neither of them want the relationship.

This phrase when used by me means so much more. When I say, "I love you" I don't just miss you when you aren't around. I would die for you. When these words escape my thoughts they are true and real and do not fade with the snap of your fingers. Breaking my devotion for a person is a very difficult process and only comes with a deep sense of betrayal or a gradual decline in interaction due to the others in my life. This does not come easily for me and typically this sort of break takes over two years.

There has only been one time where the change of mind has come quickly. This occurred when a "friend" betrayed someone very close to me, my boyfriend, and myself. Not only had this person stolen a friend from me but they had treated them so roughly that I could do nothing but defend them. I do not take well to betrayal not for my own sake but in the lives of those I care for. I had been maltreated by this person for years but I have never minded until she got those important to me involved.

When I say I love you it is the love Jesus had for me. I was always taught to reflect His love in everything I did. Loving my enemies is a place to start. I do this and more however if these people refuse to see the wrong that they have done and justify themselves as if they are more important than anything else I must reject them. These people are toxic to be around. I love you to me means I would die for you and I cannot imagine my life without you in it. This applies to family, friends, and other half. When they do things that put themselves in danger I feel the worry that they may not be around so deeply. Little things to my friends that they say or do can become incredibly hurtful because of this. Jesus loved me first and everyone else. If He loves them how arrogant would I be not to do the same even if it hurts.