Life has been better but today has been so incredibly horrid. I was so exhausted when I woke up that I barely made it to school and on top of that am sore from winter guard. my bus broke down on the way home and we had to wait for a new one and if that wasn't bad enough I came home to my challenging grandmother who completely rearranged and snooped through my room. None of this bothered me quite as much as the speech our guard director gave during class today.
He was tired when he came in and taught us new work but expected us to remember all of it when we had only seen him do it once. I have the WORST memory so of course I instantly forgot it and could do maybe a full count of the work. After seeing us fail so miserably he ranted about how we aren't trying and we don't want to get better.
This is not the case. If only speaking for me I LOVE color guard like a sibling. There are good and bad days but I have been doing it for seven years regardless. To hear that he thinks we don't want to be here really bothers me and I feel like he looks down on me and other returning members just because we learn slowly and like to perfect our work before doing it full out. This is a crummy way to spend senior year when it could be so amazing. I am not here to win trophies rather I can't tear myself away from the people. This is the last year I've got and I want it to be without a single regret. I'm probably going to talk to our director about it tomorrow but I hope he doesn't blow me off like he tends to do.
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